Sunday, November 05, 2006
i hab a nitemare ytd... its so scary leh... im so scared... i scared it would happen...
i dreamt tat my laogong wan break wid mi... i still rmb e whole process...
i tell ur now... heex... at first i was goin out wid my laogong de mah...
den we walk till veri happy de... den i went away for awhile... i go toilet...
den aft i cum out of e toilet... i saw him holdin hands wid another gal...
den got hug oso... tai guo fen le... i was veri confusin... i really duno wad to do at tat time...
den i was lyk hidin away from reality... den i saw them chat till veri happy...
den i ran to toilet n cry... really veri sad... nobody was in e toilet... so i cried n cried...
den i went out of e toilet aft cryin... den saw him outside e toilet...
tink he was waitin for mi... den he saw mi cryin... he ask mi alot of qns...
he got ask mi y i cried... den i tell e whole thing lo... den he told mi not to anyhow tink...
but i dun believe him... cuz he even hug a gal outside... how can i accept it...
den i ask him whether ish tat gal his gf anot... he dun admit... den i ask n ask...
he finally admit le... den he sae he onli use tat gal to test mi... ya tink i will believe mah...
den i ran away... duno where i run to... den saw him again le... tis time more worse...
i saw him together wid a gang... all pai kia... den mi veri scared... n he dint act as e normal him...
he oso act lyk pai kia... i was really veri scared... mi wanna run away de...
but they all block mi... so i cant run away... hab to hear wad they saes...
den they ask mi not to fan CP le... they oso ask mi to leave him alone...
i was so sad aft listenin to them... den i wanna cry again... they sae cry la cry la...
den i cry n run away le... tis dream was so real... i can feel it oso...
i scared tat it would happen one dae in real life... n he would dumped mi...
when i tink of tis... its makes mi cry... cuz i veri scrared tat it would happen...
den ytd nite... i sms him... he did not reply to my msg... i was veri worried...
i tot sth has happen to him... den i cant slp... keep tinkin wad has happen to him...
mi so worried bout him... till i cant slp... onli slept for a few hrs onli...
den when he woke up tis mornin... i ask him... he told mi tat he tink of sth den slp...
so ling ren dan xin... lets tok bout wad happen when i eat outside ba...
todae i went to coffee shop to eat wid my family... at BLK19 de... den we saw a drunkard...
he was really veri drunk le... den he suddenly pour beer on himself leh...
duno wad he ish doin nia... pour until his pants n e floor wet wet de... he siao de...
ilovehim(: 
